can never explain what's in my head

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Malcontent, Aug 26, 2006.

  1. Malcontent

    Malcontent Staff Alumni

    I've always been crap with words. I can never get a grip on them. Can never say what I really feel, no matter how hard I try. Words like "I love you", "I need you", "I'm lost without you" are so overused they have no meaning anymore. I read all the powerful things other people have written but I can never do it myself. I try but they always just sound clumsy. How do you tell someone how much they mean to you without either sounding like you're lying to get what you want, or overwhelming them? Why can I never say the right bloody thing? Whenever I try it just comes out wrong. The meaning of words change with context, tone, how the person reading them is feeling, and I just can't keep up with the changes. I don't understand. I wish that just once I could say how I really feel and not mess it up... Time to steal someone else's words again...

    I look straight in the window, try not to look below
    Pretend I'm not up here, try counting sheep
    But the sheep seem to shower off this office tower
    Nine-point-eight straight down I cant stop my knees.

    I wish I could fly
    From this building, from this wall
    And if I should try,
    Would you catch me if I fall?

    My hands clench the squeegee, my secular rosary
    Hang on to your wallet, hang on to your rings
    Can't look below me, or something might throw me
    Curse at the windstorms that october brings.

    I look in the boardroom; a modern pharaoh's tomb
    I'd gladly swap places, if they care to dive
    They're lined up at the window, peer down into limbo
    They're frightened of jumping, in case they survive.

    I wish I could step from this scaffold
    Onto soft green pastures, shopping malls, or bed
    With my family and my pastor and my grandfather whos dead

    Look straight in the mirror, watch it come clearer
    I look like a painter, behind all the grease
    But paintings creating, and I'm just erasing
    A crystal-clear canvas is my masterpiece

    I wish I could fly
    From this building, from this wall
    And if I should try,
    Would you catch me if I fall?
     
  2. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    youv said you find it hard to say what you think, maybe try writing a letter, when i was at one of my lowest points writing down my thoughts and feelings really helped me out alot, even if i didnt show it to anyone at least id got a few things of my chest, maybe you should try this, and if you need to tell someone something this maybe the first step in telling them something, in a letter its much easier to show how you feel without feeling that other people think your chatting shit, and in a letter you can write it as many times until you feel its right, i hope this helps

    vikki x :hug:
     
  3. allofme

    allofme Staff Alumni

    actions speak louder than words anyway...

    a flower with a card that reads... listen to my actions... because the words to express how i feel have not yet been written...

    my appreciation for you is only exceeded by my love ....


    i would accept that.....
     
  4. Wonderstuff

    Wonderstuff Staff Alumni

    That poem is...brilliant. Who wrote it?
    and :hug: I agree with allofme. Actions often do speak louder than words. But if the words you are saying are all the same as the ones in the poem, I think using the poem is better than the associated actions.
    I'm sorry if that didn't make sense :(
    I hope you're ok hun :hug:
     
  5. ministeve

    ministeve Member



    That is the best thing I have ever read....And I've read Plenty....
    thought I'd say so...
    SK