Just woke up after dreaming about my wedding day to find that i am still alone and my wife is never coming bake. right now i do not want to carry on the pain is to much. i just fell so alone with christmas coming it is just getting more than i can take. so i juat opend the bottle of brandy got out the blade and i know that will be that. i can not carry on feeling the way i do just to make my family and friends feel better if people love me just let me go. thanks to all in here for trying to help sorry to let you down. but better this for me then smashed out of my head on drugs in some hospital with people telling me they understand. done that once before never do that again.