on Friday I lost my job. (I'm a teenager so it's not like it was an actual career) but I feel like such a failure. I've been getting bad again & sinking back down into my dark hole of nothingness, and losing my job is almost like the straw that broke the camels back I guess. it's been 2 days & I already relapsed on my self-injury (partly because now I don't have to worry about my short sleeve uniform showing my arms so nothing was holding me back). I've been trying to get a new job for the past few months but nothing has happened so now that I'm fired, I have less than $100 to my name until I can manage to get a new job. I already managed to steal money from family to make sure I don't go completely broke. It's something so small that has made me feel like such a piece of shit. I have nowhere to go from here except down. I'm not sure if I can even catch myself from falling again & I'm not sure if I want anybody else to.