I know it's stupid but today I had a fortune cookie and normally I don't believe in that kinda thing, unitill... I read the message inside and it said "It's the right time to write that letter". This was quite a shock to me but I did understand and I went straight to thinking about a suicide letter. Just incase this was the issues I had another one and the message inside was "Everything is now in place for you to make a majour descission with ease" - then I thought about suicide. My grandfather recently died and I just wonder if hes seen the pain or whatever and is trying to send me signs, even some other family member or friend thats passed away in the past. I don't really believe in this sort of thing but it's worth a try.