So I've been gone from this site for quite sometime. All in good faith though I was, well I thought I was better. The key word being thought. I have to admit I have slipped and have done small unnoticable cuts every three to two months. Should I expect this as a positive? Like a learning curve? I admit to others that I have been a cutter and I'm no longer embarrassed or cringe at the term of cutter. I keep telling myself that it means improvement. Is it? Still I find a sick fascination for knifes or razors...It's unsettling and I feel stressed again and almost tempted to cut, just one more, just one more. But I fight it, I just feel like I'm losing my resolve again. I mean I was doing so well for a long time. And now, perhaps it's because I'm going to be a senior next year and everyone in my family is expecting that I'm going to be this ivy league student or something. Do I still have the hope to wade through this storm and stay away from my habit? Can I?