If you can get better, that's a solution that's good for you as well as them. So maybe the best thing that you can do is focus on getting better
If the meds you've had in the past haven't worked, you can try to get new meds or have them adjusted.
You can also try out ect. There's also something new that I've heard of called rTMS. Maybe therapy?
Acupuncture and Chinese medicine can help too.
The book in my sig. is good too.
There still stuff you can try, and I hope that you can get through this!