I have been on here before... a few months ago. I broke up with my BF about 6 months ago. I have tried very hard to move on and I just cant. I have had times when I felt better but now I feel like I did after we first broke up. I realize that I love him more than I ever could anyone and while it sounds stupid, I know that I will never find anyone to make me feel like he did. I will spare you the boring details. The real reason I am posting this is because I have several different pills that I want to take. Yes I am serious. I cannot deal with this pain anymore. I just cant live like this. I feel like I am living in the past and that is no way to live. The last time I talked to my ex was about a month ago. The last thing he said to me was that he was happy with the way his life was now and happy with himself. Which makes me feel like he is much happier without me. And that is probably true because I had so many problems I do not blame him for being happier without me. I just wish he would have loved me the way I do him and we could have worked things out. I just cant do this anymore. There is nothing left for me. Please do not try and talk me out of this or how I feel because it will not help. I appreciate someone wanting to help, but I am beyond help. All I ask is that someone will please tell me what pills I need or how many I need to take to do this. I have all kinds, from vicodin, xanax, trazodone Mostly anti depressants and muscle relaxers my dr has give me over the past several months. That is the best way you can help me is to help me be out of this pain. I dont want to feel like this anymore. If I do not hear anything I will just start taking them and hope that it works.