i'm a male and aged 23. i've realised that my self worth must be way down because i usually don't wash my face in the morning. i use a bar of soap to wash my face at the very most two times a week. i shave once a week but if i'm in a good mood (not often) i may shave twice a week. i have never really tried facial clensers and moisturizing lotions and i don't know why. i never do anything to my hair because no hairstyle looks good on me. so i just leave it, and it looks so messy all of the time, like when you have just woken up, but i am used to it. i wear the same clothes and only change them after i have a bath, i go to sleep in them and then spend the day in them. i change my clothes a maximum of two times a week, i've had times where i've worn the same clothes for a week. i feel as if clothes are not important. i also rarely buy new clothes because i feel i don't deserve or look good in them. i do change my underwear everyday though. i hate my face i don't like to look in the mirror. i definitely know i am not the most attractive looking person in the world. it does not help when i have a boring personality as well. i feel as if i don't have a personality or identity. i feel like i'm a dark shadow and i don't acknowledge myself. it it hard to explain. i am the quiet one of the family, i show no character, i am a mystery to them. i ask myself in the mirror who am i? i thought maybe i have borderline personality disorder but i don't meet certain symptoms. i definitely have depression, social anxiety and avoidant pd but i always feel that there is something else wrong with my personality or identity. i see different people with different personalities, but i feel i have nothing inside me. i just wish i could be like these people.