can someone speak to me? for few last minutes..

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by mokumokuren1, Jul 23, 2011.

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  1. mokumokuren1

    mokumokuren1 Member

    i am not feeling well. vdry, very sick and weak..
    i want to know if someone can talk to me for a little amount of time. i want to talk to someone even that its before i harm myself if i do.
    i think that i wont hurt myself so severely if i do that.

    i self mutilate. without it i am very numb and there is a sinking feeling full of anxiety. i wnat to do it before work if i do it at all.

    you do not have to talk to me.. i just want to try asking..

    im sorry if its just trouble..
  2. Constantinos

    Constantinos Well-Known Member

    Hello mokumokuren1,

    First I am available to talk to you any time you want and with any way you want - just inform me.

    I can understand that you are feeling desperate and helpless - i want you to stay on these forums.

    Are you currently visiting a psychologist or psychiatrist? If no have you thought of this possibility?
  3. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    Here to talk if you want to. :hug:
  4. kote

    kote Account Closed

    im happy to talk with you any time.
    i understand the presure you are under too.
    also its extremely hot and humid right now which makes us feel worse.
    i can help you with drs. and medicine. ive been sick for 6 years but recently improved after a change of medicine.
    i dont want you to harm yourself in any way!!! you are worth so much more!!!
    i want to help you and as we are in the same country i can understand many of the problems society/work causes too.
    im usually available 24hrs a day so whenever you feel low try and find me and i will be there for you. also others on this site are extremely kind and helpful. you will feel part of the family soon.
    sorry i wasnt online when you were - i played kendo last night ( my only form of life ) - apart from that im in bed all day every day. so i was tired this morning and slept in. if you play kendo or did when you were younger its an excellent release of stress and a great confidence booster. through that im slowly getting my life back.
    anyway a little info on me - i had a nervous/mental breakdown due to work and it completely destroyed me. ive been suicidal ever since and each year i try to work at least twice again but always fail. i just want my life back!!! i also committed about a month ago but my wife saved me. i feel very guilty about that too!!!
  5. kote

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    there are also some very good medicine we can take here which other countries dont have.
    especially for anxiety - i was on a drip for it last week and it was the best drip ever. i felt like a new person.
    so maybe i can help you with medical advice too.
  6. mokumokuren1

    mokumokuren1 Member

    i visited psychologists many times, more then i can remember the amount. i change them commonly because i am taken from one specialist or one hospital to another one of them. it only gives me harm. i dont want to consider that anymore.
  7. mokumokuren1

    mokumokuren1 Member

    i am really feeling like vomiting. its not healthy or good but i force it sometimes but there is other times that it happens alone. i just want to do it now so the feeling is gone. very sick in my stomach.. i dont know why i tell people though
  8. kote

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    we are here to help and support.
    even if youre throwing up, please trying to drink something like pokari sweat.
    i used to throw up when stressed.
    but i changed my medicine and no longer do that. infact after finding the right dr. ive managed to stay stable ( although only in bed ) and not worry or panic so much.
    if your stomach is feeling really bad try and find some medicine at the drug store. take a little and then go to bed. try to make yourself most comfortable.
    maybe some energy drinks would help and give you a bit of energy to feel a little better.
  9. Constantinos

    Constantinos Well-Known Member

    Do you ask for this change? or is this part of a referral process?
  10. mokumokuren1

    mokumokuren1 Member

    no. referred from one to another place, it isnt my decision. im never the decision of what happens to me even if i try to be.
  11. robin66

    robin66 Member

    Hi mokumokuren, I'm so sorry to hear how bad things are for you. I'm in the same boat. You can always PM me. I have a lot of problems too. I know I"m not much help, but I just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you. Robin
  12. peacelovingguy

    peacelovingguy Well-Known Member

    It might be best to talk to someone in your own nation - I could chat to some here and it would cost me hundreds of pounds for a few hours!

    I'm in the UK - I'd talk no problem and have offered to do this with a couple of members here.

    To those who do this - you really are brilliant.
  13. robin66

    robin66 Member

    mokumokuren, hope you're OK.. We are thinking of you and hope you are doing OK. Please PM me if you want . I will talk to you. Sorry for all the pain you are in. I understand.

    To peacelovingguy: What is that avatar? Who is it? Just curious, Robin
  14. Darkdragon44

    Darkdragon44 Well-Known Member

    Im here to talk, about anything!!!!!
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