Can`t get this out of my head..

[DrownedGirl]

I should told my parents. I should of do it. I just can`t get his breathing out of my head..and the blood.. Dose anybody know what to do..13 years later i am still living this moment again and again.

 

[Christianv2]

I hope at somepoint you feel better, if there is anything I can do, feel free to pm me.

s*

 

[jane doe]

well, it can be a very good way to et it out

 

[DrownedGirl]

I become so agressive when i think what happend.I just really don`t know what to do abaut it.

 

[Tux]

What did you do? What situation are you refering too?

 

[DrownedGirl]

Well i let a man take my childhood by doing a thing which i could fight back..but i didn`t.

 

[DrownedGirl]

Onec i saied to myself that i am gona live a normal life. Never minding the abuse. But now i see how man are. Egoistic. I am fat i am ugly i look like a boy i am probably not a woman...ok..you just keep saying that. But the man who raped me was an animal to. He didn`t mind my screams,he didn`t mind that i was just a child,he didn`t mind that i would have to live whit all this shit he didn`t mind that it hurted me he didn`t mind that i was bleeding he didn`t mind my tears..He wanted just what he took,whit no moral. And what am i sopose to do? Like man? Forgett all? Kill my hurt inside? Forgive? Live on?
Well i can`t. And i won`t.

 

[weegee]

dont think becuase you can get over somehting like this it would make you anything like that pig that did that to you. the diffrence bettwen the two of you is that he felt nothing to start with so he had nothing to bury. you have feelings though, you are more human then most humans, so you need to stay alive and work through it. i would say keep ocupided but thats evading the probelm. if your not in therapy get a therapist and if your in therapy get a better one. find a close friend, dosent have to be in the real world(PM me if you want) and confid in them. tell them what you have keept botteled up inside, and how you feel. you need help and you dont want to do this alone.