Trying not to sound whingy but I have absolutely nothing in my life that is of any real value. No reason to get up in the morning except for therapy... to talk over the bloody failures of my life and why I'm as f*cked up as I am. Even my psychologist doesn't really think that things can change. The people who love me most are my family and I live 4 hours drive from them. When I'm with them I'm not happy and want to get away again. There is a big black hole inside me. A heart made of ice. Nothing touches me. Nothing interests me any more. So why do I drag my useless self through each meaningless day? Any hints would be welcome as the grinding mind-numbing boredom is killing me a second at a time.