I suspect i've had it for much longer, but I became aware of depression when I was 16. All of a sudden I realised I was completely empty, alone and confused. It's like I woke up to the reality of life. I started at college and I would walk alone at breaks, around the streets and in the park. In classes I hardly ever talked. Hardly made any friends. Fast forward over the years since and i've regressed. I'm 21 now, and I feel utterly dead inside. It feels like there's nothing left to take away, my mind is an empty chasm. At my age there's no hiding my embarassing life situation. I've overstayed my time in life. I think I realised this long ago. Now it's time to take the final step.