Sitting here in tears atm... trying to figure out a few things: 1. Why am I always told that I am less than... or at least made to feel that way? 2. Why do I seem to have to always live by the rule "dont speak about your problems" and watch while others do and are able to get help/support? 3. What did I do in my life that was so bad I deserve to be punished the rest of my life for it? 4. How would suicide really be somehow worse than what I already feel?