I know this is really random but please respond. Has anyone else experienced psychosis when smoking weed. Has smoking marijuana made you more aloof and distant? Has it brought such 'out of the world' perceptions that have ripped your beliefs apart? Have you lost your identity while smoking weed before? I'd like to share my story for those who are willing to read. I have always been an awkward guy, and I always try not to be... but it is just who I am. I feel disgraced to say I still and have always had poor self esteem. Beyond pathetic social skills, almost like symptoms of someone with aspergers syndrome. I sometimes have trouble knowing where to begin, how to express myself in certain situations, how to react to certain situations, how my face should look like when someone is talking to me for example. And I know there are tons of pot smokers in this western society and I have nothing against your beliefs, but I am just wondering. From this website, it states: Emotional Effects of Marijuana Many regular marijuana users seem to lose their motivation to achieve in school, work, sports, or creative endeavors. Even if they are talented and were doing well in these areas, they may stop trying. At the same time, the money they may have spent on their productive pursuits becomes diverted to drug dealers. Those who use marijuana as an escape may fail to develop normal social skills and remain childlike in their ability to deal with other people, handle stress, or form their own opinions. Some people become obnoxious and a few may even become violent while high. Others become overwhelmed by heightened input from their senses, and may seem to "shut down." Taking a high dose of the drug may even lead to cannabis psychosis, which can include hallucinations, paranoia, and a loss of identity. That description is exactly how I feel at the moment. I feel total regret of ever smoking weed in my young teenage years and feel terrified a little right now. I feel sort of a failure to society. I shunned myself in high school. It was all me. I could've chosen a better path, but I was afraid, and misguided. I feel like I finally see what people have been seeing in me as 'the aloof, anti-social one, weird guy.' But to be honest it's okay Im better off believing Ill be okay. I still feel like a child, and I am turning 18 in december. I am currently 17. I just feel sad because looking at the past, I was such a loser. Such a sad story to think about. Ive quit weed, but found myself smoking it like a week ago with friends. When I smoked it I had all these perceptions, all these thoughts, that opened my eyes all so quickly. I get these strange philosophies while my other friends just get 'high'. I really believe that if you are suffering from a mental illness then you should not smoke weed. Many people that say they just get high and thats it and don't get the 'Cannabis Psychosis' effect is because they have stable mindsets. They are not afraid and their beliefs are able to withstand the power of weed. However people like me that lack the stable mindset and dont have a strong sense of identity to begin with and also have cases of anxiety, depression and other conditions are taken control over by the thoughts that come with smoking weed. From experience, I was overwhelmed by it. I felt like I lost myself and that I was throwing in the towel. All I could do at that moment was smile and wait for it to go away. I was watching the movie District 9 while I was high with my friends. It was a really eye-opening movie especially for a guy like me while I am high. I watched as the humans took advantage over those aliens. This world is survival of the fittest. I saw that humans were just like every other creature on this planet. They turn to shitty fierce creatures when things are getting bad, or when they are threatened. I know these thoughts seem so 'wow' but it just isn't healthy. If you are an anxious and worried person, those thoughts are heightened when high, and you feel the weight of everything compared to a person who can rub things off. I want to believe I am a stronger person so I will believe. I will feel it. Do I seem like a psychotic person to you? Oh such stupid questions coming out of my mouth. Ive never felt more sorry in my damned sad life so far. Im alive though right? I really hope people can learn from this random compulsive rant. I also just wanted to know if anyone else here has felt like this, considering this is a depressed forum.