can't be happy

[ToddMAdl]

I've always felt kind of strange for posting here because there are individuals who really do have so many more issues that in many cases isn't even in their control and are in much worse situations emotionally. I have had millions of suicidal thoughts since I was nine. I didn't really realize I was depressed until I was 15 though. I'm in college now and I've been feeling better because I like it significantly better than highschool but those cynical thoughts resurface sometimes. I will think things should be so much better and how I want so much more. I don't know why I can't be happy with my life. A lot of things have gone my way and looking at me from the outside you'd think things are great. I grew up the youngest and very spoiled in a good family. I got into the college I wanted, I'm pledging a fraternity, I even managed to bring a lady back home last weekend. Still though, every day is the same it seems like and the days go by quickly and I get bored and unsatisfied and I feel constantly busy. I thought that's what would make me happier in the summer because things went by slowly and were boring but things are faster now and it's still boring and unsatisfying. At the point I really don't think anything will make me happy because nothing really ever has.

 

[Dave_N]

Hi Todd. It sounds to me like you have a pretty good life. You're just a little bored by it, because life can get pretty mundane and repetitive. Try doing different things and be more spontaneous. That might make you happier. Just try new things. Be adventurous.

 

[purplefizz]

You have depression, so no matter what's going on in your life, you're not going to feel your best. Don't feel weird about posting here. Everyone has different problems that they're dealing with. Your's are just as important.

Have you thought about therapy or medication?

 

[ToddMAdl]

Yeah I've had both since I was 15.

 

[Stranger1]

You really need to factor in some fun. Have you called your young lady? She is probably wondering what happened to you? Get outside and just enjoy your surroundings. The alternative is isolating. I don't wish that on any one. I have been Isolating for the last 15 years!! It is a tuff life to live. You said you like your school, Have you thought about volunteering to help out? Who knows you might make new friends. You could tutor some people. Hell that would give you some extra money for things you want, or from what you might want to do! You as always have friends here at the forum!! Take Care!!:chopper:!!