Hello. I feel ashamed to be writing this because I know this is no reason to have suicidal thoughts and yet I do, this is truly trivial compared to the problems of many. But please help if you can. Over the last year, I've developed strong feelings towards a girl who worked in a local restaurant which I went to regularly. Last week she told me she was leaving the restaurant and I felt empty having never told her how I felt. We are 'friends' on a social networking site, so I sent her a message pouring my heart out to her and telling her that despite barely knowing her I felt very strongly about her. She didn't reply for days, and I was afraid I had frightened her away. Eventually I sent her another message, asking if she was still ok with me. She replied that she was but didn't know how to react to what I had said. She asked what I wanted from it and I replied that I just wanted to get to know her. She replied that this was inappropriate as she had just started seeing someone (which I didn't know) and she didn't have any feelings beyond friendship for me. This was hard, but I replied that this was ok and that I hoped that we could still be friends - she replied "yes of course". Since then, I've sent her a couple messages asking how the new job is going etc. It's become clear she is ingoring me entirely now. To make matters even worse, this morning she updated her relationship status to "In a Relationship" - I know she had already told me that but seeing it hurt much harder than I could have imagined. So now I'm left with consuming thoughts about her because I feel so strongly and she won't even talk to me. I know this is totally ridiculous because I don't know her that well, and I really hate myself for feeling the way that I do. People just tell me "get over it" and I know they're right but I just can't and nobody seems to be listening to the fact that I'm finding this stupid pain unbearable and I just can't cope with it anymore. I've never had a girlfriend before (I'm 26 - yes its pathetic) but depsite liking other girls I have never had such consuming thoughts about anyone. I'm scaring myself and I don't know where to turn. I feel sick, I'm shaking, I'm constantly crying, I can't sleep or eat, I can't focus on anything but her. I hate myself for telling her because I seem to have lost the link I had with her. I don't know where to turn-I just want this pain to end, and there seems to be only one way to do that. Thank you.