i can't breath. I am trying so hard. Trying to be there for others. Trying not to be the one in need. But right now I can't do it. I just can't. No longer, not anymore. Where do I go from here? Why do bottles of pills seem so attractive? How can I keep existing? How am I going to cope? After all this time, I'm back at square one. A flop, a failure, a waste of time. Trying to persuade myself I was better that I could do this. Where do I go from here, how do I keep doing this.