I wish I had the answers to get me through life. I've struggled with major depression all of my life, and I've now developed a case of psychosis that's impaired my ability to think normally. I believe that there's a big conspiracy that includes members of my immediate family that involves them just messing with my mind, and nobody seems to understand how serious my problem is. What's more, my delusions revolve around a girl that I've talked to only a couple of times. I think that she is in love with me, but we've never hung out. I talked to her last night on facebook and it only reaffirms my feelings for her. What hurts the most, though, is that I'm just leading myself along grasping for anything that makes me feel good, but in the end it's all just nothing. Psychosive depression is such a debilitating illness, and I can't function like a normal human being anymore. I feel that I have no options.