I know that I always seem to be creating threads about how much I wanna kill myself, but I really don't have anywhere else to turn :sad: A lot of shit is going on at home, I won't go into what, but it's stressing my whole family out. I'm experiencing strong suicidal thoughts, so much so that I jumped out of the car a few nights ago and tried to jump off a motorway bridge. I can't control anything anymore. I wish to get a knife and slash my wrists open. My nurse called earlier saying that the consultant psychiatrist wants me to go in to see him tomorrow. I don't know what to tell him. I've been in the local emergency department twice in as many weeks in distress with voices and overwhelming urges to kill myself. I honestly can't cope anymore. Should I tell him everything and risk being put in hospital? Or lie and go home and kill myself? I'm shaking with agitation and anxiety. I want to cry but I have no tears left. I'm emotionally numb. I'm past giving a fuck about everything around me. The only justification I can give to all this is that I was put on abilify a couple of weeks ago (from seroquel) and all seems to have gotten worse since then. I'm seriously worried that i'm going to harm myself or someone else. I don't know why i'm trying to explain myself, because I can't. I think i'm losing my mind.