I really don't know why right now, nothing triggered it that i can see, i just really want to rip my skin to pieces, i don't care how. I'm trying hard not to move out of bed for now, the door is locked, but i know there are scissors in the room somewhere, and i'm scared if i try to find them to get them out the way, i will end up using them. It just feel like my whole body is calling out for it, just to feel something. I've tried reading through all the tips on here, but my brain just seems to block every one of them, just says i need that pain, need to hurt, to feel again, and i'm not in control of it properly, its like a reflex, like an itch or something, like i move instinctively to keep tearing my skin up... and the worst thing is, it feels so good when i give in, each time i hit or scrape my skin, is making me feel really good, which i don't usually feel... its usually just neccessary for me, so i'm not sure why its like this... i don't know how far i will go right now, thats why i posted. For now i know i'm not doing any serious damage, i just want it to stop instead of getting worse.