I cant control myself, 1 minute i can be positive the next i can just break down. Its silly little things make me think about life and break down, looking in the mirror works both ways, being banned, being ignored on msn, i cant bare to watch tv or leave the house because people i see make me break down about myself, all makes me want to run, cry and cut. My mental problems used to come at night in bed but now they happen during the day where i start rocking backwards and forwards, i was even making moaning noises for 25 minutes straight and i couldnt stop it. I cant seem to stay positive for anything longer than 2 hours.