Today after 29 years of struggling , I can't cope anymore. I live with my mother and sister who never love me. They gets angry and abuse me mentally, emotionally, physically whenever I say that I am depressed and want to suicide. Obviously it is because of them and their rude, uncaring, inconsiderate, hateful nature that makes me what I am today. They said bad things about me to every people - neighbor, colleagues, doctors, nurses etc. As a result, these people are also always rude and hateful towards me. I have already attempted suicide two times. In both the cases, when I woke up in ICU, the nurses were very rude towards me. One of the nurse even tried to beat me. I am not a freak .I am never hateful to anyone. I am always calm and composed. I never hurt anyone physically, mentally or emotionally in my life. I don't know why these people are so rude and hateful towards me. I want to go far away from all these people. I really hate these people. I can't cope anymore. I have no want to love and understand me ( not even a psychiatrist ). I have no way out. Either I have to leave this world or these people have to change their hateful nature towards me ( which will never be ) . Please someone help me if you are really sympathetic towards my suffering and pain. Please take me out of this hell. I can live if I have someone who really understand and love me.