Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Bruces, Mar 28, 2015.
I'm so wracked with guilt and anxiety it's eating me up I can't handle it
Why do you feel guilty?
as a fellow mea culpae sufferer, I can only say, if its something you can put right do it a.s.a.p.
If It's not, try to offset it with a good deed and then (and here is the hardest bit) forgive yourself and move on; declaring to never do whatever it was again.
Terry is right, it's about learning from your mistakes and trying to become a better person. It's hard but be kind to yourself. Yesterday, I saw a person begging for money and I made his say by giving him 7 dollars so that he could have a warm Neal. He appreciated that and called me a kind person. The care and compassion you show will help you with healing process. So it's dealing with life one day at a time. Be safe please.
I've made I repairable mistakes
hat are the mistakes you have made? Most things can be put right again! I think your depression is clouding your judgement...keep talking to us here bruces
Long story short I left my previous job to work with my father and eventually run the business but in the last year I've gone downhill so when it was time to renew the contracts and simply couldn't decide whether to reknew them or not so my dad had to make a decision and not renew them and now theve finished I'm thinking I've made a huge mistake which I know I have I'm such a loser and a bad person
Mental illness doesn't make you a loser or a bad person. I haven't worked in 10 years and now I wouldn't be able to anyway, but I know that I'm not a loser. I'm just mentally handicapped.
I'm a loser besides the illness I've never put any effort into anything I truly believe I'm a terrible
No, you are not a terrible person. People in life make their own luck. You have to be kinder yourself and start the healing process. The healing process starts from within and you know that.
I can't help but hate myself
I don't hate myself, but I hate the way that my brain is. You shouldn't hate yourself.
I do I'm a terrible person
Why do we think more of our animals than people we just make them suffer
I just want my existance to stop
I want my life to end too, but it never does. I feel like part of my mind is gone and I'm tired of living this way.
Choose something you enjoy and do it! There must be something that makes you feel a bit better?
Could you still continue to work with your Dad, even part-time but take out the pressure of the idea of running the business? I'm sure you've built up good skills during this time. Allow yourself the space to do the best you can but it doesn't have to be all or nothing. Even if you didn't renew a contract, my guess is that family would let you change your mind. I know you don't take a lot of advice here or respond to what people say but I hope you know people are thinking of you Bruces.
It's too lAte to change our minds because the contracts have gone now
I had a business I could of run but I just couldn't do it