we are all here to help, we all care about you, I know what I say probably won't help, but you're not alone. i know you've probably heard that a million times but there are people in this world that get the same feeling. And I always think it's stupid to say I'm not alone because no one thinks and feels exactly like me, no one has the exact same thoughts, so yes I am alone. But I like many others hurt and feel similar to how you feel and we get how hard it is. it's hard to give advice to people who are in the same position as you, but I care about you, take it one day at a time - one hour if you need to. We are all here if you want to talk more