fucked off with life completely. i try everyday not to think about things but to be honest the only time i feel less crap is when i think about suicide methods! is this normal?! i have methods in my head that i could do at any time, i just need to grow some balls and go through with it instead of telling people and make them hate me more. i want to go through with it today, if i do i know i wont fail and yes i am scared. i dont know why im posting here, maybe its because i feel i cannot tell nobody else.