I'm feeling lousy today. No interest in anything, maybe because I'm depressed. No goals, aspirations, dreams. I'm stuck in college, running out of classes to take, and still no idea what to do. Have to think of something soon or I'll have to stop due to a lack of interest and (as mentioned earlier) simply taken too many classes. Thinking about what to do just makes me feel even lower; I've eliminated too many choices from either a complete hatred of the classes and career options or a complete lack of interest in the classes and career options. There isn't anything for me. Makes me feel worse and hate myself more than I already do. I can't do this for much longer. Everyone else here know what they're doing, whether they've been here for longer, the same, or shorter period of time than I've been. Most of the people in some of my upper division courses are graduating at the end of this semester, which is over after next week. I hate myself so much right now. Everything is making my suicide ideation worse than normal.