Well here I am back at home after 4 days in hospital after having a heart attack (mild) my neighbour called the ambulance after seeing me keel over in the back yard ( I had absolutely no desire to call them) laying there accepting my fate(couldn't even do that right). The cardiologist diagnosed acute pericaditis and inflammation of the pericardium which in turn stops the heard from pumping effectively. The cardiologist put in a call to my wife in india and explained the situation saying for the short term I needed someone around and she urged her to return home, she told the Dr she was to busy to return (this is the result in trusting and believing in someone) and would get her mother (80yr old) to call in and check me I put a stop to that. I was told today that they would admit me on tuesday to drain the fluid to prevent another heart attack BUT to everyone's shock I have refused any further treatment. Now my fate is sealed when it happens there will be no stigma attached for my wife or my children and family in Australia and besides I have a do not resuscitate on my file which my wife has always been aware of. I thanked my neighbour for showing concern but have asked then not to do it again It's been so long since I have looked forward to something and basically I only have to wait it is finally within reach.