I really dont know what to do. I want to be here but I just run through the forums not able to utter a word of support of comfort. For a personal reason it is very difficult for me to be here. Today is so so hard. Everything feels and seems so damn overwhelming even just being here in my home alone. I want to go back to the unit but yet I sit here with all the pills and think why not already!!! I cry and cry, wipe up the tears and cry some more. Everything just hurts and I dont want it anymore. The pdoc at the hospital now says I'm bipolar and borderline personality. How the Hell can that be? Either way it gives a very bleak outlook for any type of healthy future for me or my children. I just want to be dead!!!