So two days ago I cut for the first time in a long time..It made me feel so much better and I don't ever want to quit. I know it's an addiction, I admit to that but unlike drink or drugs it doesn't do me any internal damage or it won't kill me. It just helps me gain control when I am so low. I know I won't ever be able to stop for good but if it helps me cope and get through each day I don't see the issue. It's far less destructive than other methods I could use and it's not "normal" but then nor am I. I am a very messed up person with a messed up mindset.