I am still feeling very depressed, like there is no end in sight. I don't know how much longer I can hold on. I have already hurt myself and now I want to really do some damage. I am having thoughts of killing myself. I know I should propably go to the hospitalbut explaining it to my parents is very difficult. They do not want to talk about depression or even get close to it. They are ones that say depression is just something that comes and goes nothing to worry about. Everyone gets depressed at one time or another and it will just go away.