All I do is binge and vomit repeatedly I've suffered with anorexia bulimia for 8years now but the bulimia is the strongest. I binge to distract myself from thoughts and feelings I don't want and fear,I feel trapped and alone I'm stuck in the basement and I can't purge the emotions tht suffocate me day in day out. I feel such a mess I feel so ugly and pathetic I don't trust anything or anybody anymore I feel like a prisoner a victim victimised by others and this rotten stinking disease I've fallen and been knocked down for the last time ther is never any justice people hurt me so I hurt myself I hurt people and hurt myself I'm not a bad person but I am told I am. Nobody knows me I'm so sensitive its painful I feel suffocated by the frustration of trying to back my corner trying to get ppl to see listen and understand. I'm not dead but inside I'm dying, the pain tht I go through contains any hope for this.