So i thought im depressed because i sit at home all day long doing nothing, or i sit at home all day so that is why i am depressed... So i found a job, bought a motorcycle (love those!), bought a new laptop (wanted one for a long time), installed a new air cooler in my room, filled pretty much everything i wanted, sounds cool? not really.... I then found myself depressed again, with no point in doing anything, nothing to fight for.... no hopes, no dreams..., So i decided that i want to start my own business, but i needed experience in business management, so i found a shop (im a sales man) where i could become a manager, but it was shit, the owner filled me with promises an empty words, and he was an asshole overall, so i said fuck it and i left. A day after that i found a new job, as executive manager in a small business, but the owner wanted me to do all the shitty job while he took his sweet time feeding on my ideas and energies, and here i am, wondering if i should say "fuck it" again and leave... I dont care about money, money never made me happy, i thought maybe some high quality job will make me happy, but nope... still not happy! I want to make a complete U turn in my life, hell i even thought about enlisting to the french legion army, or to run away to some distant tropical country and open a small bar on a beach, away from everyone and everything... but... i dont like people, and army, or a bar, its all about working with people IDK what aleas can i do... Maybe i should travel across the alps on foot, sort of "self discovery" thing? Damn it! I hate my life I hate my job I hate everything abut my life I hate my body And i hate this feeling i get when a meet a pretty girl and she smiles at me!!!