As the title says, I can't get doctors to listen to what is actually going on in my head to the point that they might be able to help me. Well, I've given up on them now, pretty much. So I wondered if anyone here might be able to help me make sense of it....
I'm diagnosed with 'clinical depression' and have been on and off anti-depressants for about 8 years, but whereas before my symptoms seemed to 'fit' the accepted 'clinical depression' tick boxes (I hate those tick boxes!) like on-going 'low mood' and so on over many weeks etc. over the past year or so things have altered and now I feel as though I'm maybe taking the wrong drugs and I feel a bit lost with it all.
I've been worried that I actually seem to fall more in the bi-polar spectrum of things because my moods can fluctuate REALLY suddenly....one minute I can be 'ok' and then the next horrendously, awfully down unable to do anything much, which lasts a few days but comes on with no warning. Then sometimes, I just sort of 'bounce back' if you like. Again, no warning. This sometimes happens over the course of a day, although mostly is a few days of feeling utterly awful.
I spoke to the doctor who said that it's not bi-polar as I don't get proper 'manic' phases, but I find it hard to believe everything must fit so rigidly into the right box before you can get any help with stuff?
It worries me because it's like not knowing where I'll be from one minute to the next. Sometimes it just seems to happen -that my mood just switches radically - or other times there's a trigger (someone says something or whatever) and then it happens. I am *totally* confused by it. I'm on Citalopram right now which does not seem to help stop this happening.
Anyone else have anything like this happen to them? Has anyone told you what it may be, or just said 'you have depression' which is what they said to me.
I'm diagnosed with 'clinical depression' and have been on and off anti-depressants for about 8 years, but whereas before my symptoms seemed to 'fit' the accepted 'clinical depression' tick boxes (I hate those tick boxes!) like on-going 'low mood' and so on over many weeks etc. over the past year or so things have altered and now I feel as though I'm maybe taking the wrong drugs and I feel a bit lost with it all.
I've been worried that I actually seem to fall more in the bi-polar spectrum of things because my moods can fluctuate REALLY suddenly....one minute I can be 'ok' and then the next horrendously, awfully down unable to do anything much, which lasts a few days but comes on with no warning. Then sometimes, I just sort of 'bounce back' if you like. Again, no warning. This sometimes happens over the course of a day, although mostly is a few days of feeling utterly awful.
I spoke to the doctor who said that it's not bi-polar as I don't get proper 'manic' phases, but I find it hard to believe everything must fit so rigidly into the right box before you can get any help with stuff?
It worries me because it's like not knowing where I'll be from one minute to the next. Sometimes it just seems to happen -that my mood just switches radically - or other times there's a trigger (someone says something or whatever) and then it happens. I am *totally* confused by it. I'm on Citalopram right now which does not seem to help stop this happening.
Anyone else have anything like this happen to them? Has anyone told you what it may be, or just said 'you have depression' which is what they said to me.