I just had a nightmare that me and my fiance were in a dark house, we were talking and then he grabbed my throat, pinned me against the wall and lifted his fist to punch me, and i kept saying "i'm sorry, please don't." Took alcohol and to many pain killers tonight so dunno if that caused my nightmares but they were dark, and vivid. I feel like i can't get peace in this world or when im asleep, i'm just in constant mental hell. I imagine if i was to OD, i would be in an unpleasant dream state when dying. I can't get no peace. I wish i was never born.