i think of killing myself all the time. it's the only thing that brings me comfort, but it's also driving me crazy. i know i have a pathetic reason for wanting to kill myself.. my girlfriend of four years and i broke up eight months ago and i can't get over it. it's just getting harder every day. the worst part is i'm the one who screwed it up and i have to live with that regret, knowing i ruined the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me. i can't face the thought of dealing with that for the rest of my natural life. basically i'm an insecure person, incapable of handing life by myself, pathetic, alone, and a coward on top of everything else. because i know how much ending my life would hurt my family but i still feel like i can't handle this pain any longer. every time i see a bridge or a tall building it's all i can think about. i wake up with these thoughts every single morning and it brings me to sleep every night. i can't see how this will ever get any better.