I overdosed in March and then began cutting my arms and wrists in July/August. Rang the on call dr and they got a CPN to speak to be. Thought he was rude as he asked me if I wanted to kill myself why haven't I suceeded. I told him I was afraid that it would go wrong and I would end up like a vegtable or something. I asked to be admitted to the mental health ward as i felt i wasn't safe. He eventully allowed me to do so. When I was there the psy told me to come off every drug i was on (anti d's, beta blockers) in one go. The side effects where awful. He recommended that I needed to eat better and excersie. He did refer me to a mental health nurse but i kept missing appt bec i didn't want to take anymore time off work. Have moved to London for work and left behind family and friends. Have dept problems and just can't stop looking at the stash of pills and razors i have, I know in my heart that it is a temp problem but the pain in unbearable. Has anyone used the NHS direct line before, as I haven't reg with a dr in England yet?