I just feel like I have nothing left to live for... i've tried my whole life to be happy and for some reason or another I can't ever be. My dad and mom were always filthy drunks, that the on;y good they ever did was send me to my grandparents to live, but when my grandfather (my father figure) passed away they started to try and make their lives better. I came back to live with them and things got a little better.. but just when I thought everything could get better my dad goes back to the way he was. Mentally absuing me daily. Then I turn 18, got a job, got engaged to the guy of my dreams.. until recently this guy starts acting just like my father.. i'm in a loop and I can't get out.. I love my parents and my fiance but I just can't deal anymore.. I don't feel like typing out my whole life story so that's the jist of it..