Right now I am having a hard time trying to go on. My wife left me about four years ago taking our kids which I haven't seen since. Some how she got a divorce from me with out me knowing of course and haas remarried. I could handle that but I want to see my children again really bad. I am afraid of what she might be saying to them about me and I don't know how they are. I also have a very large debt and I will never be able to finish college, which is very important to me. I currently work part time and live in a sleeping room and often wondering where my next meal is coming from. I feel like this is all I to look forward to and I just don't want to go on like this. I know I am better than this but can't find any help anywhere. I can't even afford to hire a lawyer to try to see my children. The people I talked to so far insist that since I didn't finished college I am not able to and I had one who accually said I was delusional for wanting to go back. They said this with out even talking to me first, needless to say I have given up on mental heath professionals and I have no where else to turn.