I can't live like this anymore. I can't cope with the constant sadness for absolutely no reason at all. I can't deal with the drastic mood swings. My heart has literally been ripped from my chest this evening. Everything I have ever done has been a waste of time. Might aswell not bother with anything anymore. It's all a waste of time. I have given every last thing I have, when I wanted to die I stayed alive for you. When we both had nothing I gave you everything, absolutely everything. No matter how badly you hurt me, I gave you another chance. I am burdened with the disease you gave me yet I feel no resent. Everything I ever gave you was a waste of time, for as long as I am like this, for as long as I can't feel happy, you will never feel loved. You deserve more, so much more than what I give you. I might aswell just slip away because I no longer have any purpose on this planet.