I'm not quite sure where I should put this. I just wanted to let especially Ravens know that I took the advice and revived something I loved doing as a child: sewing. We bought a really nice sewing machine in a beat up box at a pawn shop yesterday, when we came home and took it out of the box we realized it is brand new, never even been out of the box. I looked it up on Amazon, and we paid way less than it would have cost us there. So, that totally made my day, and I am very excited to get started. I don't know how something so simple can be such a huge turnaround in how I feel. I used to sew on my mom's machine when I was a kid, she taught me, and I always enjoyed it. Now I can't wait to do it again. So, bottom line is, I no longer feel suicidal. I have something to be really excited about, something to look forward to. I still can't sleep though, three hours last night. But at least for now I'm safe.