Before I say anything, I just want to say I don't want to die. I know I have a life ahead of me that I want to live... I just don't know how to let go of this...... I have an addictive personality when it comes to people. I have always met a guy and fell for him within a day and then couldn't get over the guy. In 2006 I met who I thought was "the one" well we both treated eachother horribly. Cheated on eachother and everything. This lasted up until yesterday when he said he is leaving me. He's told me he was leaving so many times and then after a while he would always come back but this time I think he's serious And you know alot of the times we were together we would always fight but I knew that this relationship was something worth working on because once he started treating me right he was just the best guy. The best person to be around. I just couldn't stop being selfish. I couldn't stop taking my anger out on him when he hasn't done anything wrong in like a year. And now he's fed up with it. He's fed up with me and how I can't treat him like he should be treated. And I just feel like I can't go on. I can't be awake for 5 seconds without thinking of all of our pictures or the trip we just took or some kind of memory of him and I just break down again. I take tylenol PM to go to sleep and when I wake up I take some again. I seriously just don't know what to do. What if he really doesn't come back this time? What am I supposed to do? I need so much help. I just can't function without him. He fits together in my life and with my family so perfectly. I just want him back. But I've told him I am going to change so many times he just doesn't believe a word that I say anymore. He thinks I'm a lost cause and he's been waiting on me to change for 2 years he's completely lost faith in me.