Its not over. Remember what we spoke about, remember the steps you can take? Just take one small step, one foot at a time, and things wont seem so insurmountable. You can do it...I have nothing but 100% faith in you, that you can get pass this.
I know it feels that way now. But it's not over for you. You can always take steps to change and make your life different. MJ is right. Take it one step at a time. I have faith in you too. I know you can do this.
Try to keep in mind that these feelings will change. That's the only thing in life that's a certainty. Feelings change. Try to make it safe for yourself while you're waiting for it to ease up.
I'm so sorry that you're hurting so bad right now. :hug: I'm here for you if you ever want to talk.