I honestly am ready to disappear. I have nowhere to turn. Nobody to talk to. The people that claim they love me are either far too self absorbed or busy to realize that I am falling apart. So as of right now I am ready to let go. I'm tired of crying every single day and sleeping my life away. I'm tired of trying to get my lovers attention only for him to turn me away because he's busy with classes and focusing on "life and the future" as he calls it. And he would like me to trust him and trust in that. But where do I actually fit in? What if I don't make it and he'll never know. I already self harmed a few days ago. I just don't feel okay anymore. Everyday is terrible, never any good comes out of any of it. To make things worse, my mom tells me that she wishes she had a normal child.