My depression has gotten unmanageable, and I don't have anywhere left to turn. So I'm here. I've tried every treatment under the sun--meds, therapy, diet, exercise, hospitalizations, even ECT. Nothing works. My family hates me, my therapist fired me because she doesn't know how to deal with my PTSD and dissociation, and my psychiatrist keeps telling me he doesn't know what to do with me. My family has told me that this is my last chance to get my crap together, and before the end of this year they're going to cut me off financially. That will leave me homeless--I get disability, but it's not nearly enough to cover housing, and the waiting list for subsidized housing is closed because it's too long. I have no friends--the few I have, I lost when I broke up with my boyfriend. I want to have a life. I have dreams and goals...but no realistic way of achieving them. I keep asking for help, but all I get is "Oh, you just have to keep looking for the light at the end of the tunnel." That's just patronizing, not actually helpful. So I've stopped even trying to tell people how bad it is. I just don't think I can keep holding onto nothing for very much longer. I'm suicidal all the time. I don't know what else to do.