I don't even think I can do it anymore. I'm realizing that I honestly have NOBODY who loves me, nobody who even gives a shit about me. I just want to dig my own grave and lay in it and die. And then I'd watch all of my "friends" and family look over me with sorry faces. Only to forget me a few weeks later. I just wish someone would kill me, maybe that would look better. Maybe I wouldn't look so fucking selfish. I mean, why would I throw all of this away? I have a great life. My friends love me. My parents completely and totally understand me. School is amazing. God, I wish.