I've come across some of your other posts. Man it looks like you've been kicked from pillar to post, anyone else in your position would probably be feeling the same.
I get you when you say how you don't feel a part of the world, it's like standing from afar, watching it spin by and not feeling a part of it. You mentioned about waiting for school to accept you. All I can say is that I truly hope that you will be, and so be able to kickstart a better chapter in your life.