It's worse than its ever been I don't even know how I've coped this long but I can't any ore. Literally have everything I need and god I want it so bad. I don't want to hurt anyone but this is the best thing I can do for them now. There is nothing else. I don't even know why I'm posting on here. I guess to see if anyone, even strangers, care. I've had no contact with my family or friends for 3 days, not through lack of trying. And I honestly think that this is the only oPtion left. I can't keep doing this it's too hard.