For a long time now I have felt trapped in my own house. I only leave to go to school or if my parents force me for some other reason. I just can't stand being around other people, I see them being happy and it makes me feel even worse about myself. I just don't understand what's wrong with me why can't I be normal? Why do I always have to keep my head down? Why do I always freeze up whenever someone looks at me? But mostly, how did I even get to be like this?