drink, eat, cry, cry, sleep... My ex is going away to Europe for 3 years to become a translator. He's having it all paid for by a rich old lady who (I am convinced) is trying to buy his 'affections'. He and I have been seeing a lot of each other the past month and we have missed being around each other; I know what people will say, that since I broke up with him he has every right to go anywhere with whoever he chooses. But I am afraid to be alone and fall into a worse depression than I am already in. I can't get off the internet. I'm between work and school. I'm drinking too much. Last night I was up eating (unusual), drinking a whole bottle of wine and looking at engagement rings online for literally hours. Today I can't get out of bed I'm so depressed. And this is !!!!without!! his company. I'm worried that without his support I will turn to suicide and ruin everything I've worked with in the past years while I was with him. Do you think it's better if I completely stop talking to him, my best friend and former lover, during the last 3 months he's in the country? Or should I find some way to enjoy his company without being miserable. I still love him and he still loves me. This complicates things. He knows it would never work out with us as long as he is stuck in his rut, so going to europe is his solution. This is such a confusing situation I don't even know what I'm dealing with. Sadness with him, sadness and loneliness without him, and the timing of when to stop seeing him, before or after he leaves.