So I finally managed to find a job, but I'm still a failure. I can't do anything right, my work is never good enough, and I'm tired of being griped at.
I said something to one of my co-workers that was intended to be a joke, but everyone took it as me being arrogant and having an "attitude problem." Believe me, if there's anyone in the place with an over-sized ego, it's not me...in fact, I pretty much have zero self-esteem.
I hate myself and I wish I could stop being afraid and get it over with. All I really want to do is die.
My boyfriend called me last night and left a couple of really mean voicemails while I was in class. I'm 90% sure he was drunk, but he's still an asshole. I put up with him because no one else likes me and I'm teriffied of being alone. As far as I'm concerned, I'm worthless and I don't deserve any better anyway.
I feel like I used to have so much potential...and I fucked everything up.
The only person who cares about me is my mom, and all I do is upset her. I know how much it hurts her to see me so miserable, and I want to pretend to be happy so she won't worry about me...but I can't anymore.
I don't know what else to say....just that I'm running out of reasons to live.
I feel like everything would just be better if I were gone. :sad:
I said something to one of my co-workers that was intended to be a joke, but everyone took it as me being arrogant and having an "attitude problem." Believe me, if there's anyone in the place with an over-sized ego, it's not me...in fact, I pretty much have zero self-esteem.
I hate myself and I wish I could stop being afraid and get it over with. All I really want to do is die.
My boyfriend called me last night and left a couple of really mean voicemails while I was in class. I'm 90% sure he was drunk, but he's still an asshole. I put up with him because no one else likes me and I'm teriffied of being alone. As far as I'm concerned, I'm worthless and I don't deserve any better anyway.
I feel like I used to have so much potential...and I fucked everything up.
The only person who cares about me is my mom, and all I do is upset her. I know how much it hurts her to see me so miserable, and I want to pretend to be happy so she won't worry about me...but I can't anymore.
I don't know what else to say....just that I'm running out of reasons to live.
I feel like everything would just be better if I were gone. :sad: